Thursday, September 2, 2010

I had a dream

Ever since my mom passed away, almost 9 years ago, I have felt a bit lost. She was my sounding board, my inside joke buddy and my best friend. I like to believe she is my guardian angel now and watches over me. Whenever I am feeling down my thoughts always turn to her. I want to talk to her, to rest my head on her lap while I cry or hear her crack one of her wildly inappropriate jokes so I can smile. I think of her most before I fall asleep at night, when my mind is trying to clear out and rummage through the good, the bad and the ugly of my days. I hope, no beg, sometimes to dream about her just so I can be close to her again. Sadly the dreams rarely come when I ask for them but sometimes, like last night, I get them out of the blue.

It was a wonderful dream. I was driving around and happened upon a yard sale filled with all of my old things. When I got out to look, it was my mom's yard sale.  I got to see and talk to my mom again. We looked through old items and pictures I had never seen before. We were laughing and it was as if she had never left. We talked for what seemed like hours and, when I woke this morning, I was in the best mood. Happy, lighter, and with a sense of peace that I haven't felt in a while.

That was my

Intentional Happiness
Momalom !!!
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moment today.
What about you? 


13 comments:

  1. What a beautiful !!! moment! Have you read, 'We are their heaven' by Alison Dubois? (sp?)

    It talks about how our loved ones stay with us when they die, and also that they visit us in our dreams.

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  2. Aw Kam - that dream sounds like a gift. So glad you got to spend some precious time with your mom!

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  3. What a nice dream...I am so glad it helped. Have a beautiful day.

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  4. Oh, that's beautiful. I'm glad the time with your mother (even if in a dream) brought you some peacefulness. I can't imagine what it must have been like for you to lose her. I have the same type of relationship with my mom and I would be lost without her. Wishing you more beautiful dreams and sharing with your mom!

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  5. Hope you have more dreams that good! : )

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  6. It must have been a lovely comforting dream. I hope she comes back to visit you more. My best friend's mother passed when we were 19. I can't even imagine how hard it must be to not have your mother around.

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  7. That was beautiful. I started to tear up at just the image of "a yard sale filled with all of my old things. " Thank you for sharing such a wonderfully personal !!!

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  8. Here's to hoping you have more dreams just like that!!

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  9. AWESOME! I love that for you. I can't imagine but I can not believe how strong you are. Love the story too...how fun to have a garage sale!!!

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  10. Your dream sounds like a tremendous gift. The visual of you meeting up with her in your dreams is beautiful.

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What you talkin' bout Willis??